Friday, March 13, 2009

On Turning 40

I turned 40 on Wednesday, the 11th.

You know how people sometimes ask you on your birthday, "do you feel any different?" And you might say to yourself, "I don't. Is that bad? Should I feel different?" Or you might stand in front of a mirror like Molly Ringwald in 16 Candles and examine your body for changes. And not really notice anything different. That's been my experience, anyway.

I feel completely different and completely unchanged all at the same time.

I keep saying "I'm 40" in my head and then getting a little freaked out. The immediate follow up question is, "how is that even possible?" People who are older than 40 roll their eyes at my freaked out-edness. People who are younger than 40 (but older than 30) look at me and tell me I don't look 40. I like these people. A lot. :) The under 30 people cannot be trusted so I don't ask them. :)

When I was 10 years old, 40 sounded really old (heck, 30 sounded really old). The truth is, it still does. I didn't think I would ever be 40 and especially not be 40 and still get pimples (total bs, people). But I also never dreamed I would be so blessed...with love and friends and dreams come true. And a hair dresser who can cover the gray so beautifully. :)

Getting older can be scary but I'm actually looking forward to those reading glasses with the rhinestones. I hope to wear them on a chain around my neck and search around the house for them for hours. And then forget what the hell I was looking for in the first place. It's going to rock.


Victoria SkyDancer said...

...and with that attitude, my friend, you will rock the casbah on all your future birthdays ending in "zero."

Scout out the territory, because I'm not too far behind you... ;-)

Blessed Be,

pokettiger said...

Happy Be-lated Birthday!! I saw Sark's announcment about your birthday in her newsletter. I will be turning 40 in April too. I have begun planning my "It's time to party like it's 1969" party. I am not upset about turning 40 but it is causing me to pause and ponder a little more than any previous birthday.

Jean Slusher said...

Reading about your brother made me cry- big tears- so I'm glad you followed with something funny, like not listening to people under the age of 30. I agree, people under 30 don't know shit. Jack shit.